Abondoned....

Have you ever felt being abandoned? Have you ever felt being used by someone whom you have trusted blindly? What happens when all the emotions come to subside as the situations and the circumstances comes to an end. Sometimes nothing matters in life. The thoughts are often lost and the course of action doesn't find its way.

Everything stood in turmoil when I was going to step in to the new phase of my life. I had lost myself while trying to defend someone who proved that I was actually no one.

When the life turns to give a lesson, you ought to learn it or else the life goes on teaching the same chapter again and again. After losing the job, I was shattered to pieces. I was simply losing my identity while trying to seek out the existing issues and problems.

Every little incident made me lose hope and I felt like I was lost in the maze of life. My partner on other hand always encouraged me. It was for him that I started believing the fact that every matter shall settle down in the life with the passing time

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The people who had always been there during my good times soon started avoiding me and always pitied me because of the way the things had turned on. I always felt what exactly I was doing in my life. What purpose am I serving? I dint knew that loosing of job would have such an outcome on my physical and mental well being.

I had nothing except the grey thoughts and my inner self was afraid to accept the fact that soon the things will be turning over to the better side.

Slowly and securely my flat was registered which was the biggest obstacle since I dint had job in my hand. I was slowly loosing myself in the darkness that defied my existence even.

But suddenly there was a sharp turn and everything seemed to take shape.I got a job and the things started falling to places that I had never thought even.

With the hard times on fold, I came to know about the people around me and realized its better to be abandoned at times to realise the self worth.

True Teacher...the LIFE..!!

Life has its own ups and downs. At times we feel everything is settled but does it actually settle. After working for several years with an organization, I thought that the final achievement is done.

I started working as a Company Secretary in a new company and I made a new friend in the new Office. Everything ran smooth till the management had not taken a decision to move tha factory somewhere else out of Kolkata.

The staffs of the Kolkata region had a thought that the turmoil is temporary and everything will soon settle sown. But we were wrong. The time ran and spread its claws taking all the little happiness that we had.

On my side, I was devastated. I lost my job at the time when huge amount of responsibility was piling up. I was about to get married and on the other hand my home loan was struck due to loss of my job. After a lot of struggle and after about fourteen interviews, I cracked a job. I was happy but the fact that dwelled in my mind that whether I am actually happy or not.

In the meantime, my colleague had not got any job. Honestly speaking, she had not even tried for it. I tried to explain her lot of times that why a job is important. But her World was struck around the knot of marriage. She seemed to hear the facts and little did she listen to whatever I said.

I started working in this new office and thankfully the scattered pieces of life had fallen to place. I had slowly started living my life. On other hand now my friend cum colleague often tried to create a lot of confusions in my mind. She showed that she was concerned for my well being but actually she tried to find faults and drawbacks in my present office and the previous office.

I had always regarded my colleague her as one of the best person who understands and depicts situations well. But with the time moving on I realized that she was not very happy when I had achieved peace and a bit of well-being. She always complained about her life and compared my life to hers.

Honestly speaking I was at a much better condition due to my own efforts. Further she could afford to spend her life sitting at home where I was compelled to earn.

About 8years back, I lost my father and therefore the financial crisis had started from 2008 itself. I could never explain this particular trauma of financial insecurity to my this friend who by God`s grace dint suffered a bit even.

People around are never happy if peace prevails in your life while they have a certain amount of satisfaction when suffering causes the mental turmoil. I don’t know about my this friend that what exactly is her thought process .But what I can sense is that she wants to believe and make me also believe that the previous office was a better place and make me go through a mental turmoil again.

Life…..a great teacher..!!

Those tears.....

She looked at the empty wall,

With a lost thought in her eyes.

The dreams seemed to collapsed,

On those dreamy blackeyes.

Those were forgotten,

But the tears rolled forgiven.

Blunted were the thoughts,

Words were mistakenly forgotten.

The plays, the pranks seemed to narrow;

Down those miserable memory lane.

O can thou bring the thoughts in light,

The thoughts that was crumbling thee,

Could I ever take that sorrow away?

That seemed to tear my little princess in pieces.

Dreams, the illusion the little dusk that had tainted thy heart,

If I could ever,

Stumble on to your thoughts,

I would kill that beast of sadness,

That made you cry to tears and salt,

On his face at glee..

Chasing the time

I always believed that the new things can begin on any new day, new hour or even it takes moments to know when to begin in the new form.

I met an enlightened soul. Someone who made me look into my inner soul and the things suddenly changed. She made me understood the true life has nothing to do with chasing of glamour and money.

Life meant to be with people whom all the life along we take for granted. The closest, the nearest and the dearest of all – the FAMILY. What if the word “FAMILY” had not been there, how would have been the life.

The life would have been nothing but a desert with nothing but the sands of time that makes us run till we died for thirst of love, the unquenchable.

I don’t know when I started running the race of time and adding people in life. The addition was so much that the time subtraction could not be even be noticed. What is more important in life is not how we realise but how we deal.

As soon as I realised the time suddenly began to change. There was a few days left and my brother left for Chennai. The world seemed to crash but I was there standing steady with the remaining members of my family – my younger sister and Ma.

Suddenly the unforeseen happened and my sister was admitted to hospital. The senses were blunt and nothing caught my attention except the little faults, little moods that had hurt my soul people.

I started to count the reasons why I had been so much busy in my life. The reason was nothing but running behind some unimportant people to earn them to cherish them and to be a part of their life.

 Now I am just waiting my sister to recover and my brother to return. I want my family to be back in a piece. 

In midst of all this , I won’t forget to mention about that little lady  who is an angel and who made a change in my whole thought process and with that even the  deepest desires began to change.

Well, to confess the truth; I am lucky than the other people not only for having such a supportive and a caring family but also a friend who happened to be a part of life by mere coincidence.

Rudeness in the play

There were screams of fright and she walked away without even looking back. There was nothing except sobs and darkness that persistently followed her. Impatience and rudeness of her was once again rewarded with detachment from one of her most treasured asset. The twists and turns were sure not to be a part of her life. It was of the fact that all good things comes to end naturally. On her part, she tried to persuade her angel to believe her words. But it was naturally not so easy on per part, she tried to persuade the angel to believe her words. But it was hard for her to believe once again as the trust was broken again and again without any specific reason. Through the windows of discovery, natural affection had crept in to the colleagues and they had become best of friends. But nothing seemed to satisfy her extreme crave of her friendship. While the other person simply warned and it had resulted in nothing but grudge, and then the similar case went on over the time. But as the time processed on there was lot more she wanted to do for her and she couldn’t accept the possessiveness, obsession was all that was in limelight and nothing seemed to be perfect. All was drowned in those rude words which were unacceptable.

It seemed that possessiveness and obsessiveness might be understood over the time,but it was in vain when all that was there was  nothing but misunderstandings of time.But things were on place when the time seemed to ran at its pace.