Kindness

Kindness is getting lost in the midst of the busy life that we spend today.

As I hurrying down the road to complete the odd sets of work, suddenly a cab that stood beside the footpath opened its door. I stopped. After few seconds as I tried to proceed through that place again, I faced the same obstacle again. Now, I looked into the cab to find that an old lady was struggling to come out of the cab. She seemed to be old as well as weak.

I was in haste but stopped for a while. The old lady gave me a remainder of my grandmother who is also old and sick. Though I struggled with my bag but still didn’t waste a single moment in thinking what should be done.

 

Opening the door of the cab, I held her hand tightly and brought her out of the cab. There was a glee in her eyes. She stood amazed on the road still holding my hand. As I was thinking of leaving the place, I knew from her gestures that she was thinking of crossing the road. I helped her crossing the road while I was still running short of time. As the auto rickshaws were rushing down the crossing; I stopped one of them to board it for her.

After a bit of struggle, she finally sat in the auto rickshaw comfortably. She held her hand in a gesture of blessing. I stood in the midst of the busy street lost in her thoughts.

Below the ocean..

Below the ocean I sink,
I sink below the waves;
Where the ships floats...
Life above me,
On the land.
But I stand below them,
Waiting in despair.
I searched for thee,
Towards the beach.
I looked at you,
To the heaven  above,
Who has bestowed the life in me.
I close my eyes,
To see you Pa,
The groaning pain I feel in me,
As I sink deep in the sea.

My soul had departed..

My soul has departed with you. I feel so abandoned, so lonely without you my friend. Out in the road I went, to get drenched in the rain that came pouring down washing all my tears away. I got drenched wholly but still I stood waiting for you to arrive. I couldn’t cry because I knew you were not going to come back to me. My tears won’t be able to quench your anger which I had thought would diminish as we would move in our life.

I was wrong. I was having wrong perception about our relationship. I was wrong to have the thought that you will be there with me lifelong. There is a huge gap that is being created as you have moved on leaving me behind in the dark pit of life. We had never spoken of the feelings that we had for each other. We both misunderstood each other and we did defy the rules of friendship.

Nothing seems to touch me except your thoughts. How am I to survive without you? I had never thought that our relationship would drift apart in this way. I haven’t thought those long talks, those texts & those silly fights would be lost forever.

Everything changes around us. Let it be the seasons, the age and the nature itself. But I had a strong belief that our bonding is never going to change over time. But it seems that your priorities have changed over the time and you have forgotten the old episodes.

I stood in the rain. The rain drizzled down my soul, washing away all the thoughts and memories that I had of him. I stood still, closing my eyes and realizing that HE HAD NOT ONLY BEEN MY FRIEND BUT…BUT I have FALLEN for him. I WAS IN LOVE. With this realization again there was a groaning pain. I realized that I could never tell him that I could spend every minute of my life fighting with him, arguing madly and ultimately loving HIM crazily.

I stood there still, hoping and praying to the Almighty to help me in building next blocks of my life.

 

Mom...the WOMAN..!!

How would you feel if you got a set of unexpected roses on an unexpected day??A weird feeling I guess. Same happened with me today when I received roses from the most unexpected people…my office people on the eve of Women`s day.

With a routine set of work I was in a haste to complete the jobs since morning today. I saw a lot of posts in the social networks related to Women`s Day. I was busy with my small tasks which had kept pondering my mind since morning itself. It’s difficult to remember the unimportant work in the middle of the important tasks that is to be handled every day. It seems a burden.

As I was busy with daily chores thereby, suddenly there was a surprise visit from the other section of the office wishing Women`s Day. As they came slowly towards me, I thought again someone has come round about to enquire me about the interview that was to be conducted. But as they handed over me the roses I was surprised. The unexpected happiness is always welcomed in life. Thereby I was gleaming with an unknown joy.

Life is like expecting the unexpected facts and facing the surreal things. Sometimes it’s nice to be rewarded without any cause, without any hard work. In midst of such a busy day getting appreciation is always worth it.

Though for a day, people are trying to respect the women community. But the main question is that how many of the women do celebrate being a woman??

Everyone is special and unique in their own way. But I have always felt my Ma is most special, most unique woman in my life who has been always there to support me in fighting the battle of life. She is the woman who has never spoken ill of anyone even if she is hurt badly. She had been patient in all relationships and had always inspired us to grow in our own way. My mom, an awesome teacher, indeed a great Woman & I feel lucky to have her in my life.

Pa.. .. I Miss ..

I felt your absence in my soul. My heart started racing making my thoughts stagnant to my very childhood. From the very beginning of my life I have known you; I have felt my existence only because of you. I didn’t even know whether I need you right now or not. I only knew that I need you by my side in every moment of my life.

Long and short trips were a necessity part of your life and slowly I did became adapted that part where I had to be without you for few days. I had hugged your belongings whenever you left and with tears in eyes I have bade you good byes often. There used to be trunk calls at those times and I used to count a single day waiting for your calls.

I barely existed without your thoughts. My illness was often cured as you came worrying back from the trip. I have been the one of the most notorious kid of our house. With you I felt that I can be the little innocent girl. Long trips didn’t created distance between us...on the opposite I waited for your arrival to show you the test sheets which I had to often hide from my mom`s angry glance.

But suddenly I find everything speeding off in the harsh hands of time. I feel the cactus of time attacking me from every side and from everywhere .I can’t live without you Pa,I cant.

There had been instances when you have badly scolded me and then it was you again who took me in your arms, caring me, and making my tears stopped and soon flying in jolly mood again. I had often been referred in our family as Daddy`s girl and I loved myself calling so till. Pa, it was you who had took pride in whatever I did and whatever I success I reached.

Suddenly there was a fatal blow from the time glass of the destiny and I stand here in front of my ruined existence. I have been persistent in my performance .Without you, I am lost in the ocean of unknown and in the ocean of trauma.

I stood up while I was still lost in thoughts. I was struggling to bring my thoughts under my rules and under my discipline. But they stood rebellious staking my existence and drowning me in the ocean of past. I still stood near my family thinking about them and tried to collect my thoughts.

I still felt the last words that you have spoken to me that morning and I felt how I would live without his voice in my life. I stood still burning in the rage of despair and in helplessness that a 23 year old girl could have felt.

After five years I stand out of the crowd today. I have earned a little recognition and I miss you in my life. How my life would have been if you were there are the sudden thoughts that arise in my heart? I know every moment you are watching me from somewhere. Only thing that I sometimes crave, I miss is to feel is your physical existence in my life – your voice, your words and ultimately YOU.