Desperately..

I tried a lot to move on. But certainly couldn’t. I have really started analyzing what brought such a traumatic death of our friendship. I hoped and I expected that in midst of all turmoil a day will come when you will realize that i really respect you and your friendship. I despaired to find a solution to the problems that were being created between us. I lost the war that was against all the odds. I wanted to talk to you. You knew everything about me and still you put me at state of doubt. I didn’t know that ego and the self respect will bring an end to all the bonding that has grown between us for the last ten years.

Many times in past we have fought. We have fought on trifles but this time I have lost my patience. A day doesn’t cross by when I don’t miss you my friend. Our regular chats and the way in which you I thought that someday all the conflicts will come to an end.  Though you judged me wrong sometimes but someday you will understand the correct meanings of my words.

It’s almost months that we have stopped looking into each other’s affairs and have started minding our own business. Is that the world name as maturity? I don’t understand what bought such a huge distance in between us. Nothing is persistent in this life neither the relationships nor the people. But i believe the friendship is really a different part of the whole story. But the friendship that had grown in course of time I valued it a lot. I took a lot of time before taking the decision. Let it be anything but I had not thought that u will fly off India without even informing me once. Friend you have really moved on. I feel the pain in my heart of losing one of my closest friends.

Everyone suggested me to move on but it is a real difficult scenario altogether. Did I stand on the road of life that had stopped moving forward? Was it very important to make the things twist in this way? I feel like sobbing. I don’t feel to quit any way but the things have changed their due course in the ruthless hands of time. To wait means to act foolishly. I had always been emotional but hadn’t been a fool in hands of a friend.My trust was broken and it was difficult for me to forget and forgive my friend.

I have stopped thinking about this sting but to remove it from the heart is really hard to be accepted. Earlier also we have fought a lot of times but it was withdrawn by our patience. But this time things aren’t working well friend. We have already lost each other and truly speaking we don’t even feel to get back to each other though there are ways.

But still you will always be my friend..!!