A ray of HOPE in scattering DARKNESS...

He came up to me and said, “You can be a good speaker” I stood there flabbergasted and thought, “Can I really be so?”

Being a good speaker is very important. I have to speak to the people as my job is such that I am management level of the company. 

I was aware of the fright that stole all the dreams from my eyes when I imagined of conducting Board Meeting in front of the Directors or any other such meetings. I understood that speaking in public forum was not an easy task.

Every single member applauded as He spoke on the podium. It was remarkable indeed not because he was an awesome speaker but a thought kept on running at the back of my mind. I was thinking at what on Earth I had done to get such person as my guide!!

I got him as mentor; guide and I feel that is a kind of remarkable achievement for me. I don’t understand that a person who has every little happiness of life and a lot more scope to earn more; let it be happiness or revenue ,how can he be such a great guide to a novice like me.

I joined Toastmasters, a club for public speaking. I had always been a person who had so much stage fright that it kept me away from the stage. This club was related to public speaking and I owe to my friend who introduced me to this club.

A public forum but it had so much of goodness in it that I decided to join it. The criticisms were made in such way that it helped only to improve and it did not demoralize.

A great friend of mine who always somehow managed to inspire and motivate took me there for a visit. I didn’t expect much help from my friend because I didn’t wanted to be depending on her. But there were again cards from the DESTINY and HE always knows what is good and how the things are to be placed on right path.

What I didn’t know is that my wishes had so much strength that I got nothing but the best. There was a lot of grudge in my heart that here also I will be over ruled by the people and I will be the back bencher. But my journey began with bang.

He came to fore front and simply guided me. Under his guidance I have started growing more and more and have become so organized that rather than dictating things, I have started accepting more.

In fact we had become such good friends that we share a lot. He doesn’t only guide me in playing roles or speeches but simply is helping in recognizing myself. Patience is one of the traits that help in earning toughest goal. But I am still to gain this trait and in midst of all this I am finding my own true self that has a lot of peace in its own self.

My thought process has become so organized that it runs on right track and I don’t need to run behind them to catch them. My thoughts just calms down whenever I am screwed and I can’t manage the things up to the mark.

I am amazed to see the radicle change that is coming in me. I am just awestruck the way things are improving and rather as a person I am improving.

Dealing with my thoughts was the most difficult task that I had. It was tough for me to handle the rejections and dejection. I always ran behind proving myself. But the things are changing now. I have started loving myself and it is just so wonderful. While I have so much positive people around me it is real difficult for the negative forces to strike me back again. Letting go but still holding on is the true faith that someone should have while loving someone.

 

Toastmasters are helping me to revive the true gift of life and that is happiness. Being happy without reason is the most difficult task and I am slowly mastering that art. Being at peace with self is the best thing that life can gift and I have suddenly received from nowhere.

There is always a point a person a place from where it’s important to start afresh. Leave all the old, rotten memoirs and move on to create new and fresh memories. That friend of mine brought the new dawn in my life and I owe to her as I turn to be more positive and innovative.

Life will move on and it will again take me to somewhere new. But one thing is for sure that the Toastmaster episode will be an episode is to be remembered for the years to come and I will owe for my life the people who are encouraging me to BE WHAT I AM.