I Admire..

Tears welled up her eyes and again I was embarrassed. It has always been a pleasure to motivate a person, a friend. But if the same words bring tears to eyes then it is really an awkward situation. I remained quiet,lost in the thought what had brought tears to my friend`s eyes.

I have known my friend as we have worked together. She had never disclosed her true self from the day one. I was lost as I unable to analyse my new companion who seemed to be busy in her own world doing her set of regular chores and it was somewhat different from the regular jobs done by the teenage people.

I believe in destiny and I believe everything has its own time also. To know a person properly the patience is required. But as the days passed by I realized that the patience was also such a trait that would go missing while knowing my friend. She had enough maturity with know-how of everything and a high self esteem.

I sat quietly as she sniffed off and her tears fell off. I didn't have the option of cursing myself either and neither did I wanted to disturb her flowing emotions. I couldn't move. I was still. From her previous actions she made me to draw a conclusion that she was the strongest person. But somewhere there was a small kid who had not grown up.I looked at my friend and I promised myself something. I decided at that very moment that I would never hurt my friend let the circumstance be anything.

An angel blessed with the qualities of patience and tolerance .I owe the Destiny for making us friends. Her tears were calmed down after sometime. As the days turned on its pages we were turned to be good friends. She taught me the positivity of life and how the patience was important to judge a situation. Slowly I started learning and admiring my friend. As I started looking up for small help in day to day chores it seemed to be that I was a petty learner in front of the great teacher that she was.

She was simple but clever. She had her own set of views of life and she loved the life in any way .I started looking and admiring my life as I realized that every day is a new day to begin with. Leaving apart the past I moved on and secured a good job. I knew that it was all because of my friend. The new zeal and confidence made me to land over a new assignment, my dream job. Indeed a heartfelt thank you would be less to express my thoughts. But still..Thank You my friend..!!

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I had never thought that I will miss you so much. Though I have known you for last two years, still I have a feeling that I have known you for several years. Patience is the lesson you have taught me and I respect you. I feel to share with you whatever happens in my life .I want you to be there when ever I fall and whenever I achieve my dreams .I don’t have such a friend who had cared for me  and also have taught me along the way. You have been only such kind of friend. I am distressed. I am sure friend, you have other priorities of life but..I expect a bit from you. Am I injured by your behavior ? No, I am not since I don’t think that life can give me more than a friend like you.

I don’t deserve anything better than this. I have always suffered from the insecurity and inferiority. I know life is standing up leaving all this things apart but I have never been able to pull the past out of myself. I have thought of not crying over the past but I have failed to do so. Sometimes desperately I need friends who can support me and lift me. People have often hurt me and therefore I know how it feels to get hurt by a friend who has brought a beam of light in life.I miss you my friend..!!

Fading off...

Sinking deep in the shallow,

I find my memories fading off...

In the dreams I find myself missing.

To the melting blue sky deep,

The clouds fly away,

Taking me off from my World.

I ran hard,

A breath taking chase by nightmare,

I rushed,I ran,I stumble,I fall..

In the cold darkness as I freeze,

I find myself standing ..

In the burning red of the horizon..

The dawn sets me,makes me stand by,

The future deep sky blue,

The peace in the midst of darkness,

There I stand in the path of a new day.

The Oldest person in my LIFE...

Sometimes from far off he came on the cycle…the tall figure was often visible from a distance. Impatience, a virtue I had since my childhood. I being a kid tried to put my head out of the window to see how fast he paddled his cycle to reach his family.  I studied in primary section. I was always busy in capturing small little moments, most intrinsic part of life.

Very often I was scolded as I playing around here and there. They called me immature.  A question that arose in my mind was that, “What is maturity all about??”Is it being thoughtful always or doing the right things in the right moment. I didn’t have time to think over anything. I was a fickle minded kid playing around. I ran through the rooms and corridors, playing around and making everyone feel my presence. At the perfect time I was again standing at the window to see the green cycle speeding up from the corner of the lane to reach us as soon as possible.

Most of the afternoon passed while I was waiting for his arrival. Various sounds caught my interest. I tried to quench my curiosity as I tried to locate the sounds that sprang from far off places. Sometimes it was a van making a huge sound while it was rolling down the rough road, the ice cream seller often banged his desk to break the silence of the afternoon, a vendor with colorful items struggled down the road trying to make his living while blowing his vehicle`s horn. I was awake and with ample of patience I waited for him.

Ages have passed .I have grown up but still I feel my childhood coming back whenever I see him. I have the same feelings and respect for him. There have been ups and downs in my life. There had been a lot of problems, some were trifles and some had been like the huge mountains crushing me. But he had always been there. He had always been there with a patient ear, helping me to grow along the edges of life, helping me to fight when the waters of life were violent and merciless. I have learn from him to persevere in everything.

There had been the incidents which had shaken me mentally and broken me into pieces. But he was there holding me up and making me stand upright to face the challenges of life. He caught me in the midst of all odds. I was shattered when I lost my father. But he was there as a constant support and a motivator. His confidence on me helped me to fight the battle of life. I have learn along the path.

His confidence made me to work hard and fight against all odds. I admired him. He was the person who knew exactly what my capabilities were. He was always a mirror who showed me what I am. I became better with the passing time. With every little success that I achieved, he became more proud of me.

But today as I am about to get the fruits of my hard work, he is suddenly gone. I feel that there is no reason to earn success any more. My confidence of making the “IMPOSSIBLE” to “POSSIBLE” is because he believed in me and trusted me. I lost him and it’s the ultimate nature who had taken him. My grandfather is no more and I am sure to miss him in my life.

A FRIEND....

We meet different kinds of people in different spheres of life. We cross from one step to another. We are bound by the rules of each episode of life. We cross the boundaries of childhood, school and then teenage before stepping in to the formal world of professionals. 

At a juncture when my career was to visit a new vision and I have been updating myself with new mission, I met a new person who is more mature than her age. Her words “I love myself because I am myself” made me think too.

She has a frequent mood swings with high intellect. A moving encyclopaedia with positive thought. Often ignorant people who believe that “First impression is the last impression” will suffer shock after knowing her.

The first impression on seeing her was that of a perfectionist striving to achieve the zenith. People have their own views on the first day. She was calm and a good listener from the first day indeed. A great sense of responsibility works when handed over with challenging jobs. She had the intrinsic quality of being patient, tolerant and a quick learner. With an ample of patience in her nature, she is a quick learner and an ever happy girl. 

She is younger to me but always had a one liner in her list “PLEASE TREAT ME EQUAL”. By “EQUAL” she means throwing of wrapper or making a voucher or carrying a file and the list runs long to the craziest small things. But it is the small things that help in judging a person and obviously the persona.

 She is easy to tackle but difficult to be judged, an awesome guide but a bad time manager. In short she is the person whom everyone can look up to when in distress. She has a thought of being nothing but still respecting herself in midst of all turmoil.

 Internet is not for face book or twitter for her. She never gets bore of anything and is always keeps busy reading, surfing, blogging, singing etc etc. Her interest starts from the books and ends at Olympics. She can easily be described as a moving Wikipedia. She has information of every latest article - whether it is food, clothes, books, gadgets.

She knows to deal with people & situations. She is an exact formal creature in the formal world. When it is partying with friends then it is the most informal her. With a sheer skill of positive motivating power she can bring a depressed being alive to life. Not a single negative word is spoken by her so she is the most loved person around. She is a perfectionist. One of her friends said to me “She knows where to do what and she is very particular about her behaviour in different places.”

 A child by heart, she is and gets happy of no reason. An unexpected discount makes her call a celebration with a scoop of ice-cream!! An indiscipline girl with who has partner in every little thing she does – let it be partying, drinking, studying, learning.

She hates walking in the slight drizzle even. But on that same rainy day she loves moving about and exploring the lanes to find fried chop and beguni. She never gets tire of walking. Hopping from one shop to find the perfect gift for her near ones is her peculiarity.

She finds no reason to be happy or sad. She is lady with high intellect. She tries to be the strongest but gets hurt at the smallest. She believes that nothing can bind her but gets bound by the words spoken to her with care. Her friends matter to her a lot and she cares for them in her own way. She knows exactly what to do with each of the person in her life to make them feel better.

Though she is a much younger fellow than me, she sometimes is more mature in her thoughts than I am. Every moment she knows what exactly is to be done. Though at times she has her own mental shortcomings but still she is good enough in handling the same. At some point she is thoughtful with the trifling matters. It is the patience that allows winning her friendship at last.

Moments has the largest part of someone`s life. A self obsessed person who has every reason to have an obsession about her own self. A little far from being a perfectionist. A friend who can be often said to be a “FRIEND IN NEED”

Deserted.....from existence.!!!

My soul has departed with you. I feel abandoned and lonely. 

Out in  the road I went to get drenched in the rain to wash my feelings I had for you. I thought the shower will sweep off my feelings but I was so wrong, my love. I got drenched in rain and fought with the rain that tried to close my eyes.

I missed you. I missed the way in which I walked with you in the rain. Moving apart from each other hasn’t been tough though.

We had confessed each other that we can’t be with each other any more. Was that true ultimately?

The separation sometimes seems a dream to me.

Fighting away all the barriers I tried to be with you. I had never thought that with time my love will get lost in the darkness.

 I often imagine you coming back to my life as the next dawn arrive. Again we will walk with each other in the morning and look into each other`s eyes and speak the three magical words “I love You”.

My life goes on.I am caught in your thoughts and I search my way out.